I’m starting to feel like the greatest folly of youth (greatest, because young people do a ton of stupid shit), is a misunderstanding of love and commitment.
Don’t you hear people say all the time “That’s my best friend” or “That’s my girl/boyfriend.” The emphasis, ever so slightly but just so, is on my. There’s this bitter core of selfishness, of possession, in that love and commitment. It shifts it from being about the bond between two people to being about ownership. Saying that someone is your proper noun denotes they can’t be anyone else’s.
There’s a prickly little vein of selfishness running through my generation, it’s more prominent in some, but consistent across the board. I’m at fault too, I check myself every so often and get a little bit disgusted with the amount of time I think and talk about myself (as I write on my blog that I watch like a vulture for likes and reblogs and judge my validation as a human being on).
Now this is not about the amount of time we spend doing charitable work, our selfishness isn’t traditional in that sense. In fact some of the most selfish people I’ve met are very charitable because it’s something you can do to make yourself look better and get people to like you.
Love, whether it be familial or fraternal or romantic, is not about you. It’s not about ownership, in fact it’s the opposite. It’s about a mutual disarmament, it’s about releasing our egos and accepting the appreciation that we in turn give out.
Think of a parent and child. How the parent would do absolutely anything for that child. They would go poor, they would work every single hour of every day, they would give their life for their child. That’s love, that’s commitment. That’s what we should aspire to.
Marriage and adventuresome sex acts and Facebook relationship statuses are ultimately superficial facsimiles to love and commitment. They don’t mean anything in and of themselves. An empty gun is just as scary as a loaded gun, but only one of them is deadly.